Ah man, I'm actually glad I took the chance to make this place now. I think it'll be nice to collect my thoughts while I'm working on my Neocities, and even this may be more personal than any updates I plan to make on there, I mean especially since my Neocities I was planning to make exclusively for media rambling and such. I could do that here but I think this is more of an "I'm still alive!" outlet rather than what I'd like my Neocities to be.
I speak of my Neocities like this because... Truth be told I have not even come close to finishing it. It's embarrassing, but I know how to program, not make websites, so what can you expect. Especially since I'd like to make it look nice, but still like me. I've been thinking of making all of the pages something different themed, but it may take longer than I'd like, and lord knows I'm embarrassed enough that I may need to ask for help as well as my belief my updates are clogging the Neocities page update logs, LOL. Thankfully, I've heard W3 is a good teach for new website makers, and I've seen a couple—and by couple I mean I can count them on one hand—website builders already. The problem is as much as I'd like to use them their UI frustrates me, so, back to the drawing board I suppose.
HTML is the least of my problems however, as CSS is like a newborn to me. Unfamiliar and quite daunting. I rarely hear of anyone actually speak of CSS, so I'm unsure if it's as difficult as my brain makes it out to be or not. Regardless, I'm one of the worst learners ever unless you physically show me, so I'm going to have a difficult time anyway doing what I'd like how I'd like it. I've got a lot of plans! I'd like to incorporate a lot of my interests into it! Especially Rhythm Heaven since it's been one of my longest running interests (I played it as a kid and have always loved it, but I didn't really pick it up until back in 2020, crazy right?!) Aside from that, I was thinking of including some of my own video game OCs into the UI as well, as even though they exist in one universe, I truly would like to shove them into anything I could with my grubby hands. I genuinely cannot help this, I love them so much. Seriously, they've gotten me through quite a bit in the recent years. Hard to believe they didn't exist until just recently—about Winter and Summer 2021 if I remember correctly—but also completely believable since I was embarrassed of having stickman OCs anyways, LOL. I guess in part my interest in MarikinOnline 4 helped with that, but still.
ANYWAYS, I recently just hit my one month mark on Testosterone as well! I haven't seen many changes as of late aside from—apologies as this is TMI if anyone is reading but I did mention wanting to document my experience with transitioning physically—maybe slight bottom growth as well as a growth in appetite. I think also perhaps muscular strength as well since I've been able to do a bit more heavy lifting but honestly it's anyones call, as I know I shouldn't expect too much change just yet. Regardless, I'm super happy with the outcomes so far. I haven't had any drastic mood swings or the aggressive outbursts people like to mention a lot for some reason; That one I'd say is the most surprising, as I'm actually the type of guy to get angry super fast, I think if anything testosterone may have mellowed me out!
Small updates too I guess; I got a new job, as well as have been steadily planning a vacation at the end of the year with my partner, whom I've been happily dating for almost a year and a half now! Crazy to think about honestly, I've never had a relationship last this long, which kind of embarrasses me as a 19 year old. I just have to remember to take it slow and steady, I've got plenty of time.
I still haven't gotten the hang of Dreamwidth quite yet, but I'm gettin' better honestly. If anyone ends up reading this, expect more updates, 'cause this is actually quite fun.
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